21-02-2010 CNY Trip to Teluk Batik

Went to Teluk Batik with my friends..
Kinda tired that day cos din slp on the previous night..
All gambling til morning..
Then all went to eat supper..
Wait the time passes..
Morning..
We start calling the others to wake up..

Reach there savely..
Then my friends start throwing each other into the sea..
Except me..
Bcos of my cement..
I jz sit there & watch they playing..
Sienz..
But see they happy..
I oso quite happy..
XD

23-02-2010 Abandoned My Blog for the Whole CNY~

Opps~
Abandoned Facebook & my own Blog for a weeks plus..
Whole CNY din care it jor..
Feel sorry for them & my frens tim..
I realize..
My PC is getting slower & slower..
Izit kena VIRUS??
Maybe it's time for me to reformat it again..
T^T

04-02-2010 Reason~

First of all..

I just wanted to say..

I'm not LEPAKING anywhere..

I'm just staying in a friend's home to watch drama together..

Instead of staying alone at home..

Why not join with friends to watch?

Can get more laughter with that..

I just want someone(friends) to accompany me sometimes..

Everytime i asked my friends to come over my house..

They all will say the same thing..

"Your house so far la.."

I don't have my own transport..

Sometimes..

If i have my own transport..

I can go back anytime..

Sometimes..

I have to wait for my friend to back home..

Only i can follow him back...

My house is far..

So how i gonna ask them to fetch me back purposely?

Please understand that..

If we..

Like last time..

Have a car..

Is it more better?

No need depends on others..

Now we do everything also need the help by the others..

I feel i'm so useless..

What an useless shit I am~

=FML=

03-02-2010 Me

Here..
I wanted to tell you all..
I'm not stupid..
I'm not simple..
I'm not small..
&
I'm complicated..
Even myself cant know what i'm thinking..
So
Don't treat me like a baby boy..
I'm just act stupid all this while..
Because i know..
Acting stupid is a good way to see the truth..
The true face of the others..

When people think you are stupid..
They thought you are simple..

Sometimes it's good if others cant guess what you are thinking..

04-02-2010 Quarrel With Dad

Quarrel with my Dad again..
Because of me..
Again..
I think..
Cause i went out & came back home late..
But..
At first did he think of the cause?
He asked me alotz of questions..
That i don't wanna answer..
Because i know..
If i answer it sincerely..
The situation will become even worst..

He asked me..
Why wanna make this year's CNY so unhappy?
Like i wanted to be like this?
I also wanted a happy CNY..
A complete family reunion..

He asked me..
Why i always hang-out with my friends..
Because i want someone to accompany me..
I'm stuck in here all alone..
What can i do is just 24hours facing the computer..

He always said that i did'nt think of what he feel...
Does he think what i'm feeling?
Me..
As the only son..
In a broken family..
Does he think of what i'm experiencing all this while?

He asked me..
Am i really hate him?
I ignored it..
But..
Deep in my heart..
I did not hate him..
He's my Dad..
Why should I hate him?
Is he who give me life..
Is he take care of me when i'm sick..
He done lotz already
I just hate myself..
I hate my life..
Since small..
I'd been like a ball..
Being kicked here & there..
Don't have a proper family..
No people tell me how to walk the life..

I was blindly walk the life alone for years..
Walked many wrong road..
Did lotz mistakes..
Learned lotz from the mistakes..
It's just i don't have the chance to use what i have learned..

All I wanted is just a proper family..
Why I cant get it?

I need someone to support me..
To do what i wanted to do for life..
To help me when i'm in trouble..
But..
When i think of my future..
What i planned..
Always get rejected..
Nobody will support me..

~LIFELESS~

Why i always wanted to be drunk?
Not i like the taste of beer..
Is i like the feel of drunk..
When i'm drunk..
My brain will stop thinking the past..
The unhappy things..
The torture..
The memories that annoying me..
Maybe i'm thinking too much..
I have to stop it..
But..
When i'm all alone again..
I will automatically start thinking..
Repeat & repeat & repeat~
Non-stop..
So
That's why i hate to be alone..

I wish i could find a chance..
To express all my true feeling out..
Peacefully
Solve all the maze in my brain..
Without worries anything bad will happens..
You know..
Sometimes we cant solve problems if u cant control your temper..
Shout & loud does'nt mean you are right..
You are just IGNORING the truth..
If you listen to people's..
People will listen to your's too..
Simple thing..
Don't tell me you don't know huh?

This is one of the problems im facing now..
I still have many things stuck in my brain..
I dont's know how to express it out..
I know what will happen if i say it out..
Something bad will happen..
So
I choose to keep it for myself..


Message to lifeless kids:

Dont be like me..
Wasting the time..
Wasting the life..
Ruin your own life
If you have a good one..
Appreciate it..
Once you choosed the wrong way..
There is no turning back..
You have to continue facing it..
I tell you..
It's tough..
Lot tougher than you can imagine..
Don't be NAIVE~
In this world..
Only your family will stand behind you..
Supporting you..
Friends can betray you anytime..
But family..
Will still by your side..
Even you betrayed them..

=FML=

02-02-10 *SAD*

This few days many unhappy things happened..
So
Late to update my blog..
Sorry to those who's following my Blog..
By the way..
I have nothing to blog about also..
So have to wait for something Happy/Unhappy things happen..
Only have thing to blog out..

Something sad happened..
Family problem + Girl..
SIGH
Hope everything will be okay soon..
fml...
FML KOW KOW!!!!!

Don't wanna think about it..
Stop my brain..
STOP!!

=END=

29-01-10 Clubbing..The first time since accident..

Wow..
Went to Barroom for the Back To School Party..
Everyone's wore their school uniform..
But mine was throwed years ago..
><
I went there with my leg with cement..
LOL..
Hope that day is Hospital day..
Suit my condition..
Met many old friends..
They shocked with my condition..
Suprised cause i still go clubbing like this..
Thanks to Ted for transport on that day..
He's happy..
He done what he haven't done before in his life..
He DATE!
He hold her hand~
He GRIP her!!!
T^T
So Gam Dong..
Big boy edi~

=END=

30-01-2010 Jimuiz Gathering..

Today is the Jimui Gathering Day~
Actually planned to go KBOX Embassy..
But
Due to some Dont-Know-What reason..
Changed to Station 1 Cafe~

The Superman Elvis aka Chek Lap Kok
Came to fetch me at 8pm..
We planned to meet up at 9pm..
But
She came early..
I think it's because she scared Sesat Jalan..
So came 1 hour early~
We headed to Pui Mun's MOM's saloon..
Meet up with her first cause nothing to do..
(Takkan pergi paktor~ Ganjil LAH ><)
On The Way..
Many funny things happened..
Elvis drive dou very funny..
She sit dou very 'straight'..
Her head was pusing here & there..
"Jor Mong Mong Yao Mong Mong"
I asked her WHY like that..
She said wanna recognise road..
And
She said hard to see road..
Then i said..
"Of cos LAH~ u oso DIN OPEN LIGHT!"
XD
Bengongnya~

Finally..
Reached Pui Mun's place..
They haven't done yet..
Wait them to finish up the work at saloon..
Then we went to Pui Mun's house cos she wanna bath..
Her grandma saw us..
BUT~
She get confused by me & Elvis..
She's wondering which is BOY & which is GIRL~
SWEAT =.="
The first thing i saw there..
Was the KARAOKE SYSTEM..
My eyes started to SHINE~
DING!
^.^+
Guess what happened next?
No need i say also know lor..
Haha..

After that..
we fetch Pui Mun go take car from her Grandpa..
Straight headed to Station 1 Cafe..

Reached There about 10pm..
At last i can listen people sing over there..
Went there many days also cant listen..
Cause i went there the wrong day..
LOL
We order sone Steak to eat..
I waited for it long times already..
I ordered a Rib Eye Steak
Drinks jau Iced Honey Milk^^
Pui Mun jau Chicken Chop
And
A Sky Juice..
Elvis just drink a glass of Sky Juice Only..
We ate while waiting for Elaine to come meet us from KL(I Think)
Cause we planned to meet up aty 9pm
But
She reached there around 11pm..
XD

Finish eat..
We went to Kafe Bro to meet up with the BRO's..
Too bad today don't have Sisha..
T^T

The last place..
We went to Barroom..
Something unhappy happened..
So Potong Stim that day..
SIGH~
Anyway..
A nice night though~

On the way back..
It's the more CHI GIK experience..
Elaine fetch me back..
She SPEEDING!!
130-140 lm/j she lie me 50 lm/j wor..
She think i drunk meh..
Regret din drink much just now..
If mabuk jor she drive 180 km/j i oso dun care..
LOL
No need 10mins..
Reached my home..

Because of too tired..
Lazy to blog..
LOL
Delayed so many days only blogged it out..

=END=

Iced Honey Milk

Wa~ See dou also wan eat ar~

UMM~ Medium Cooked..Still have blood in the middle..

Beh Tahan.. Yummy DOU~

Elvis..Like me The 不男不女..XD..aka CHEK LAP KOK

Elvis geh~

Ini Pui Mun~

Ini dia punya Chicken Chop^^